So today was a so-so day. I made Lemon Poppy seed bread with lemon glaze and lemon butter. For lunch cheese burgers and dinner chicken nuggets for the kiddies. Nick had a major three hour spaz attack. I told him to wait ten minutes to use the computer. Needless to say he didn't use the computer for the rest of the day and I think I am going to tell him I got it shut off and only use it while he is at school and asleep and hide the box the rest of the day. That way it avoids meltdowns such as that and fights with dylan. Sometimes when you have an autistic teen things aren't as simple as schedules and rules or waiting your turn. So it is either all or nothing. So he will have nothing for a while. It will be okay. I just can't do it anymore. All the fights about the internet and downloading. It is horrible and since he is getting more violent I really do have to avoid the triggers. If the police are called or anything like that there will be nothing we can do. He doesn't mean his threats. He also can't help when he gets into meltdown mode to stop it. It has to run it's coarse. No matter what reasoning you use it doesn't work. Also I am afraid that if these major meltdowns aren't avoided that I might end up hurting him. There is only so much I can be screamed at, threatened and such without being about ready to throw something. Don't fear. I stop myself. I go into the bathroom or where ever if I have too. It is just I hate thinking negatively about him and it hurts me to see him like that.
Anyhow. I decided to re-do the house, one room at a time, 50 dollars at a time. I think I'll start with the Kitchen. That way I can get my mandolin or food processor! I will blog about my purchases and such. When I do the Living room, the 50 at a time does not apply. I will use about 600 for new to me furniture, that will come out of my money I get in July. Also we will be getting new ball joints for the car and fund our vacation to Iowa or something. I haven't decided exactly...maybe big screen TV and a WII in leu of vacation? Any thoughts? Oh and definitely complete my Friends DVD collection I am trying to rebuild. Tomrrow I will stop by Amazon.com to purchase one. Should I start at 10 and go backwards? I have a hard time making decisions. I never use to be this way. Oh well.
Oh and I got two emails today from a lady who is writing a book about difficult pregnancies, loss and miracles. I submitted Jordan's story and she wants to use it. That is exciting for me. However somehow I think my life will end up being a Lifetime Special.... Any ideas who should play me? Since I was a teen I considered Candace Cameron-Buree (DJ on Full House).
Not much else to discuss except the R on my key board keeps sticking and it is ticking me off.
Tomorrow, Two doctor appts, a trip to Walmart and Amazon.com. Busy busy day
Tuesday is an IEP conference for Nick
TTYL
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