Digeus System Optimizer 8.2.7034 review A+

Imagine my surprise when I opened my email to find that someone actually reads my blogs and likes them enough to offer me the opportunity to review their product.  I was leery at first.  I don't like to download strange programs that promise to help my computer.  But I figured why not.  It passed the AVG and Adware scan.  If it stinks or messed up my computer I would put that in my review.  But alas I only have good things to say.  Read my review and look to see how you can get this program for FREE.

What this program DOES NOT do...

• Download annoying toolbars
• Download any add ons
• Scan for viruses 

What does it do...  ALOT

I downloaded the trial version and it is fully functioning with a few limits.  I started with the Optimizing Wizard.  Who doesn't like a step by step wizard to guide you thru the program.

There are 10 steps you go thru.  And it is very user friendly.  Listed below are the notes I took while using the program.  Step two is missing because I didn't write it down so I forgot it.

step one- processes and allows you to shut down and delete processes you don't need.

step 3 checks for computer updates thru Microsoft website

step 4 optimize registry...has clear explanations of what each function will do and what those items are used for so you can make a safe decision on what to do.

step 5. Smart uninstaller. Brings up all programs installed on your computer and lets you uninstall. You think gee great I have that already It is called "Add and Remove Programs"...ha ha my friend this program goes a step further. You know those pesky items that you try to uninstall but they can't find the files...but they are still there...This program scans your computer to find whatever registry keys or files associated with the program that may be left behind and deletes it with your permission. However be prepared with a TV program or book while it scans your computer. It takes a while. Also after you unistall a program you can analyze it to make sure that it didn't leave any files behind which is especially helpful for those things that you have no clue how what they are or how they got into your system...did someone say spy-ware/ad ware...Again it takes some time but is well worth it in my opinion. Perfect example. I unistalled Firefox. I analyzed after the uninstall and there were 23 registry files identified with Firefox that didn't need to be there.  Awesome feature.

6. Lets you decide what programs you want to run on startup and lets you remove ones you never knew were there.  Again wonderful feature as there were some programs that were being loaded on startup that I didn't even know existed.

7.Another processes/startup cleaner.

8. scan for junk files Found 767 junk files. The trial lets you delete 5 per scan. I can't wait to get the full version and get them all off.

9. Registry cleaner. Scans registry for invalid entries. They found alot on mine. Way more effective than other registry cleaners I have tried. This one found over 4000 invalid files.  Again deletes 5 per scan with trial.  Full version allows to fix all in one step.

10 is registry defragmenter. Wonderful tool.

Fabulous Fabulous program.  It didn't mess up my computer.  It let me choose what I wanted to include in the scans and what I wanted to delete.  It told me where these files were and if I wanted I could open the folder to see where they were.  It told me what certain programs were used for and told me in plain easy english what each features purpose was so I didn't accidentally stop or delete something important.   It allows for registry and file backup.  I personally believe this is one of the best computer fixes that I have come across and Highly recommend it.  For ease of use.

Alise is letting my readers try the program at
http://digeus.com/products/systemoptimizer/system-optimizer.html
and if you write a review in any blog/facebook/or twitter and email her the link she will send you a free registration key for the full product for free.

Try it for yourself.  Then email her at alise.johnson@digeus.com  with the link to your review and she will then send you the registration code to unlock the full version.

It has been a while

Hiya,

Well it has been a while since I wrote.  I guess I haven't had too much to say or maybe I just thought It wouldn't be interesting.  So my fad of the week is Top Secret Recipes by Todd Wilbur.  Totally fabulous.  I made Iowas Maid Rite sandwiches.  Those sucked.  The next day I made home made Horsey sauce for nick.  Spot On.  I also made Planet hollywoods chicken crunch with Mcdonalds Honey Mustard.  Again PERFECT.  I could drink that stuff.  No more asking for extra and putting it somewhere and forgetting and then it is gross.  Nope I can make it at home. I am so happy.  Yesterday I made Barboca Burrito's from from chipotle grill.  OMG it took 6 hours but they were SOOOO Good.  Everything from the homemade pico de gallo, to the homemade adobo sauce and the cilantro rice.  Yummo.  I cleaned my kitchen and organized my food closet and wrote down the stuff we already have so during meal planning or shopping I don't wonder do we have that and buy more.  LOL. This weekend wasn't so bad.  I just loved yesterday with the kitchen cleaning, the burritos and the boys were so well behaved.  It was like the perfect day.  Oh and Jordan kept saying Mommy with purpose.  It is the first time he did that.  He didn't do it today though.   But I was so happy.

People go to amazon.com and buy Top Secret Recipes Unlocked and Some of the others.  If you love restaraunts and fast food...and you want to make it at home...buy it.  Your kids will love it.  It is cheaper than eating out.

Is it Tuesday or Weds? Wait it is Tues...(well technically weds)

Hiya,

Okay so remember I said that I had a IEP conference this morning?  I even reminded hubby last night.  So I finally nod off this morning, and wake up at 8:09am.  The meeting was at 8.  I go downstairs and hubby is sleeping in the tub.  So like a I open the door loudly and he SHRIEKS like a girl...and I say something loudly, tell him to call the school, and I go back to bed.  I wake up a while later, and the SSI check is here.  I write an email to Nick's teacher and apologize.  She calls me a minute later and says the meeting is tomorrow.  Yippee! These are the only things I have never missed.

I go to the bank and cash check, then off too walmart. I didn't even want to go because I didn't know what I wanted to buy and without a plan I get impulsive.  But hubby wanted to go.  We went and yes I bought stuff.  I bought more picture frames that were .50, a roasting pan that was 6.00, some food including the ingredients to make Chili's Molten Lava Cake Clone found on www.topsecretrecipes.com  It is one of the free recipes and only takes three ingredients!  So I will make it tomorrow and let you know!

We got home then got ready to go Dylan's play.  We dropped him off at 6:30 and the play starts at 7pm. A half hour is kinda hard to wait around with a 2 year old is hard, so we go to the dollar store.  Boy did they have alot of things on clearance.  I got two accent pillows, some diffusers and candle sets at 1.00 each and some other things.  We get going, and try to find a parking spot.  Usually I am so anal about being early or on time people get angry at me.  The one time that I am not we are late, they started early and we missed Dylan's part.  We compensated him by buying him a blizzard and letting him stay up a half hour later than his bed time.  I will be getting a copy of the video.  And he was part of the ensemble so I got to see him perform but I still was kinda mad that we missed his part and gave hubby dirty looks across the room (he had to stand in the back with the baby because there was only one seat left.  Thank god we weren't the only people late though.  We got some pictures.  When we got home we shaved Nick's head because he asked us too.  I feel really weird today.

Well I am off to sleep.  I will write more tomorrow and it will be more interesting..perhaps.

It's Monday...

My day today was a mix of good and bad.  But I stayed calm and like blah about the bad...Not caring at the moment.  Okay woke up to check the bank account (ugg)  I hate checking accounts people.  Anyhow we must have made a major miscalculation and I guess not looking for three weeks didn't help.  Lets just say HALF of my check was taken by the bank.  The other half was used for the electric bill which left us with 89.00!  Minus 11.00 that we used last night at midnight.  That is okay cuz I was expecting another check via mail.  Me and son get SSI, anyhow.  I go to the doctor.  I think everything on the boob front is normal.  I am still kind of confused and will wait for another letter.  On the downside I was told that the cardiologist wants me back on heart medications to control my heart rate since it is high and I go for a stress test soon.  What to do..I did retail therapy!  I purchased 2 picture frames that were on sale for .50 cents each.  Cutting mats sale for 3.00,  measuring cups and spoons for 97 cents, biscuit cutters on sale for 1.00, a mandolin (the hand slicer thingy) and I could NOT find Julie and Julia so I settled for Top Secret Recipes Unlocked.  People you MUST go to www.topsecretrecipes.com  and look at the recipes.  There are tons of free ones, but seriously go on amazon and buy the books.  My copy of the first one burned in the fire so I am buying a new one.  They have the clone for planet hollywoods chicken crunch.  OMG is it good, and the bloomin onion dipping sauce and so much more.
We had a moment with the lovely Post office.  We get home from the doc and guess what is NOT in my mailbox...NO MAIL.  No footsteps in the snow.  We check with the neighbors and they said mail dude was around at 1:30.  Ugggg.  He likes to skip us sometimes.  Anyway I know better.  But hubby decides to go to PO and ask them if they have it there.  They said No without looking, and then when husband says something about mailman skipping us often the lady had the nerve to say...They are NOT required to stop wheather they have mail for you or not.  WHAT?  Okay I can see if there are major obstacles in the way.  There were non that impeded him.  We have No big or little dog.. this comment bothered me.  Since my father worked for the postal system forever I know better. And when a number was demanded (she was the post master and the bitchyness was the reason for higher up number) she refused to give it, until david played the my father in law was blah blah blah...(high up position) and my brother (his fathers son) is a blah blah blah (we have no clue if he is anymore or not)  Point being if you mention you have relatives in power or at least in the know...and there is a line of people behind you that can hear bitchiness and answers like they don't have to deliver your mail...well you get the card.  However it was a 1800 number.  Not the district number.  Now I know how to get that.  She could have just answered the one question without being so snotty, and throwing in that if they don't feel like it, they are not required to stop with arrogance and a smile.  We didn't attack you and was not unkind in tone...she had no reason to respond like that.  If people approach you kindly and patiently with a question give them the same.  Hell when I worked at Arby's and people would attack me personally for errors the cook made, I would still be really really nice and calm and smiley.  The only people at work I ever got surley with is the managers and co workers.  What fricken morons.  But customers loved me and I was always or most always able to turn a cranky ass into a semi satisfied person.  Meaning they weren't cursing at me when I was done with them.  People use to ask me to get a manager just to tell them that I should get a raise.  Too bad manager didn't take their suggestion.  Yes people I did work, I held many service jobs.  I enjoyed them very much.  At least the cashiering/customer service part.  Hated the cleaning, stocking and dealing with cocky ass egotistical managers my age that were late for work, (hell even missed opening up the store one day because of hangover and I got a call at home from employees that had been waiting two hours and it was 5 minutes before opening time, I called district and talked to them and they sent someone to open the store and help fast track.  People if Arby's opens at 8 am, people are there at 5 am starting the roasts.  I know....I bet they were low on beef that day.)  Shit I even had customers (different ones) regularly give me cash tips, which I wasn't suppose to keep but I did.  This happened at White Castle, Arby's and Burger King.  Okay list of jobs I held in order
White Castle, Burger King (2 months, and the only job I ever quit because I got another one)  Sportsman's guide, Arby's, Rainbow, KFC for like a month got phased out because I worked at rainbow at the same time and was pregnant and extremely sick all the time) back to Arby's, Cub, Sportsman's Guide, TCF and one week at Walmart (got fired because my ears plugged up and I couldn't hear anything, Walmart sucks to work at)  I believe that is it.  And my last day at TCF which I consider the last job I had (don't count walmart), was September 18th 2001.
Contrary to popular opinion I loved working.  It was painful at times because of the standing, I kinda got tired of employees treating me like a retard but I loved customers and I was good at my jobs.  People got mad at me because I did everything by the book and did not care for short cuts.  I knew the company handbooks and rules inside and out and I adheared to holding times which pissed some managers off.  God forbid you need to make new potato cakes when a customer orders them, they have been up ten minutes past their hold time... Being so anal about rules and policy made me unpopular.  But hey who do you think gets yelled at when you are served cold fries or stale chicken fingers?  Not the fryer or the manager...But ME the cashier.  So I did my job correctly and people got mad because that meant they had to do their job correctly.  I have a perfectionist complex.  If I can't do it the way it is suppose to be done I won't do it.  And by suppose to be, I mean policy, rules, written, or the vision in my head (cleaning)... and then it gets overwhelming because I have this idea of how it is to be done and if it can't be done just like that I don't know how to re-think or re-organize my thoughts to do it in a way that would be just sufficient.  I hate it.  Guess who's spices always face the same way and are in order from smaller bottle to biggest and in catagories??? Yep mine.

I am off to Nick's school bright and early for an IEP meeting and then later on Dylan has his school play.  I will blog about it all of coarse.  Sorry I don't have much to say or anything funny to say.  I'm kinda out of it today.

Sunday Not so Funday

Hi all,

So today was a so-so day.  I made Lemon Poppy seed bread with lemon glaze and lemon butter.  For lunch cheese burgers and dinner chicken nuggets for the kiddies.  Nick had a major three hour spaz attack.  I told him to wait ten minutes to use the computer.  Needless to say he didn't use the computer for the rest of the day and I think I am going to tell him I got it shut off and only use it while he is at school and asleep and hide the box the rest of the day.  That way it avoids meltdowns such as that and fights with dylan.  Sometimes when you have an autistic teen things aren't as simple as schedules and rules or waiting your turn.  So it is either all or nothing.  So he will have nothing for a while.  It will be okay.  I just can't do it anymore.  All the fights about the internet and downloading.  It is horrible and since he is getting more violent I really do have to avoid the triggers.  If the police are called or anything like that there will be nothing we can do.  He doesn't mean his threats.  He also can't help when he gets into meltdown mode to stop it.  It has to run it's coarse.  No matter what reasoning you use it doesn't work.  Also I am afraid that if these major meltdowns aren't avoided that I might end up hurting him.  There is only so much I can be screamed at, threatened and such without being about ready to throw something. Don't fear.  I stop myself.  I go into the bathroom or where ever if I have too.  It is just I hate thinking negatively about him and it hurts me to see him like that.

Anyhow.  I decided to re-do the house, one room at a time, 50 dollars at a time.  I think I'll start with the Kitchen.  That way I can get my mandolin or food processor!  I will blog about my purchases and such.  When I do the Living room, the 50 at a time does not apply.  I will use about 600 for new to me furniture, that will come out of my money I get in July.  Also we will be getting new ball joints for the car and fund our vacation to Iowa or something.  I haven't decided exactly...maybe big screen TV and a WII in leu of vacation?  Any thoughts?  Oh and definitely complete my Friends DVD collection I am trying to rebuild.  Tomrrow I will stop by Amazon.com to purchase one.  Should I start at 10 and go backwards?  I have a hard time making decisions.  I never use to be this way.  Oh well.

Oh and I got two emails today from a lady who is writing a book about difficult pregnancies, loss and miracles.  I submitted Jordan's story and she wants to use it.  That is exciting for me.  However somehow I think my life will end up being a Lifetime Special.... Any ideas who should play me?  Since I was a teen I considered Candace Cameron-Buree (DJ on Full House).

Not much else to discuss except the R on my key board keeps sticking and it is ticking me off.  

Tomorrow,   Two doctor appts, a trip to Walmart and Amazon.com.  Busy busy day

Tuesday is an IEP conference for Nick

TTYL

Another Sleepless Night

Hello all or no one.  It is okay as I am used to talking to myself.  I live with 4 boys...oh excuse me three boys and a so called man.  But I digress.  It is 4:42 am, again I cannot sleep.  Could it be the horridly bright lightbulb radiating from the lamp across from me that I am too dang lazy to crawl to the edge of the bed and turn off?  I mean that means I'd have to (Gasp) move my laptop out of the way and actually move.  Okay I'll do it.  You know the kids will be nosing around here soon and if they see the light thru the bottom of the door I am doomed.
Light off, Julie and Julia in the dvd player on repeat as it has been the last few nights.  I believe the commentary track is playing.  I haven't quite figured out what I want to watch.  I miss my Friends DVD's.  I had season 1-10, watched them religiously at night for a few years.  They for some reason have a remarkable ability to calm me down and make me happier.  However the fire killed most of them.  I pulled them out (after the fire was out of coarse) and many of them were too damaged to play again.  I did just purchase season 3 on amazon.  I have been meaning to get more, but for some reason these things called utilities and rent keep stealing all my dvd and fun money.  Oh well.  Since I am completely without purpose at the moment I find things to fill up my time.  For instance at night I overheat my poor laptop by reading the Julie/Julia project blog.  Seems only fitting since I have been watching the movie on repeat for the past week.  I am up to the day she killed the lobsters.  Good stuff.
Okay I have given up on the whole WW movement for the moment.  I don't have the attention span for that.  Wonder if I should get checked for ADD or if it could just be some sort of depression that I am unaware of.  Today or yesterday to you, Nicholas woke me up crying because daddy took the internet away.  Uggg.  so I woke up cranky with only three hours of sleep.  Hubby decided to pretty much ignore my wonderful existence for the rest of said day...I hate hate hate when he does that.  It drives me INSANE.  So here I sit, Insane, tired but can't sleep, and looking for purpose.  I asked him for ideas or support on what I can do to have a goal or purpose.  Hey Julie/Julia inspired me.  I can cook, I can type.  Maybe my writing isn't technically wonderful as I forget the correct punctuation and grammar rules..but as long as my old english teachers don't read this I am good right?  Do you really care?  Okay so it is almost five am, vicodin is flowing freely thru my system (legally) and I have alot to say about NOTHING at all.  Imagine that.

Except I did catch a glimpse of the news on MSN's home page way earlier.  Said something about earthquake in Chile, possible major Tsunami hitting Hawaii soon...and with the last few earthquakes etc...anyone else thinking "APOCOLYPSE"  Has the rapture started?  Was Nostradomus correct about the end of the world but a little off on timing?  Oh well.  I shall not dwell as there would be nothing to do to stop it, and I got enough problems without worrying about the end of the world.  I wasn't even the slightest bit rattled by the Millineum.  God do you remember what a joke that was.  I worked for a Sporting goods catalog place and people called in and ordered cases of MRI's and Blankets and survival things.  That is okay not too weird.  What was strange were the daily calls of people ordering boxes of AMMO to give to their loved ones for Christmas.  One guy said that after Jan 1, money would have no value and he could use the ammo to buy stuff at Walmart.  So I saw my opening and got out the Ammo Specials list and suggestive sold the crap out of it.  I guess that is the one good thing about the mayhem around the year 2000, for two weeks my add on sales went triple and I got to keep my job.  Until it all died down and I was back to being afraid to let people know what the stinking specials were.  Two items with Two descriptive details.  Well if a person just spent an hour on the phone with me ordering crap, listening to the buyers club pitch, listening to the cross sales pitches and sounded like they didn't want another damn thing offered to them,  I sure as hell didn't want to be the one to force them to listen to the benefits of wool socks with moisture wicking properties and surplus wool army blankets and such.  I cared what my customers thought of me.  I didn't like that I couldn't ask if they would care to hear the specials...or if that was a crime, just make them listen to a list of the specials and stop me if they'd like to know more.  But NOOOOOO  Two items with TWO descriptives...  I finally got fired after twenty monitoring, (they were looking to fire me because my seasonal time was up and I'd be getting benefits soon) anyhow after alot of 100% monitoring,  My sales improving (I bit the bullet and forced my customers to listen to me ramble on about aforementioned socks), one day...On my very last call.  A very Surley older gentalman made it clear to me that he was NOT interested in hearing about anything but what he was ordering.  I took his order and quickly ran thru 2 items with (SHOCK) ONE descriptive of each.  The next day right before lunch I was informed that the supervisor wanted to speak to me after the busy period.  I went to lunch.  Apparently they expected me to work thru lunch because I knew I was about to be axed (Someone had given me the monitor sheets from the day before.  I had six in a four hour period and on the bottom of the last one which was a 97 percent btw was SEE ME Later)...  If they were going to fire me it would be on their time NOT mine.  So I barely ate at my hour lunch.  People consoled me and said there is no way I'd be fired.  After lunch I go back to work and THREE hours later they come to get me when the queue died down to two.  Then I was told I was fired.

Okay that was a trip down memory lane.  The good old days, when I could work.  Sweet Sweet Memories!  I actually liked that job, save forcing people to listen to me try to schlep them shit.   Thank god it was INBOUND.  I did try to work at Craftmatic adjustable beds.  That lasted two hours.  I kept hanging up on people.  I hate COLD CALLING with a passion.  Shit I can barely call friends out of the blue.  I mean what if I am interrupting them?  Seriously I have a severe outgoing phone call phobia.  Don't know where it comes from.  When I was a teen I lived on the phone.  Called into those phone chat lines and everything.  Maybe just PTSD from my ex...my children's sperm donor father, I met him on one of those...Tele Cafe it was called on Thanksgiving 1995... and thru the four years I was with him he continued to call those places and have girlfriends over the phone.  And perhaps maybe because for the longest time whenever I called my so called friends they were always busy.  So I figured if people want to talk to me they can call me.  God I hate the phone.  When we had our phone shut off for a half of year I was happy.  LOL.  Now I like my cell phone.  Caller ID and all.  You have excuses you can make like you are running out of minutes or it is about to die etc...also I love it because my SIL calls me on it.  :Her I don't mind talking too...but I still have trouble with calling even her unless I am really doped up and have something to say.  Or I think I have something to say.

Well it is about time I close down my Laptop and pretend to sleep.

more of the spongebob eccentric toddler

Eccentric toddler

Spongebob/lanyard motif (wearing daddies shoes here)

The weirdest day this month

Hi all in internet world.  So I haven't had much to blog about lately.  I am sure you don't care to hear about my sons rantings about King George, or my other sons whining about everything, or about the babies new backpack, lanyard, and sponge bob clothing fetish.  Yep daily he must have at least one item of Spongebob clothing: Preferably both shirt and pants (which by the way he learned to put on himself so he amuses himself by dressing and undressing himself in a variety of sponge bob combos throughout the day)...next he grabs his purple lanyard that his brother brought home from some school assembly a year ago, and then puts on his "packback" just like "dory"...the back pack is yellow, blue and red.  It is a toddler size that we procured as a free gift from either the Dr suess book club or the Childrens book of the month club.  He finishes off his ensemble with shoes, sponge bob slippers or my fuzzy pink slipper socks.  He is eccentric and adorable at the same time.  Anyone want to join me in a class action law suit against Nick Jr..for not providing warnings before their programs that sitting in close proximity to your toddler during said show may produce bruises, black eyes or other injuries? Especially during Yo Gabba Gabba.  Those flailing arm dances really can pack a punch.  They are in utter dancing, singing bliss while flailing their arms about and spinning around copying the dancing of the kids and characters.  Yes so when I go to the doctor Monday how am I to say...My almost three year old gave me a black eye.  for the second time!  Do you think they'll buy it or refer me to domestic violence centers?!

Okay so on with my day.  I am a horrid insomniac.  I never sleep well.  I was just falling to sleep when my ten year old plops in my room, starts shaking pop cans, turns on the computer and starts watching cartoons.  Hello we have cable!  I told him to go downstairs and watch tv.  Also told him not to re-enter my room until 6 am unless there was a major emergency.  I roll over and start to drift off again and then hear stomp stomp stomp, creek....and again tell said child to leave the room.  Again starting to drift off and again he comes in.  This time I yelled.  We all can't be Michelle Dugger can we?  By this time I have given up on sleeping.  At 5:50 Nick comes in, but not for the computer or tv...he is looking for underwear and clothes to get dressed for school.  I let him know where they are.  Then he gets dressed and talks to me for a few minutes and since he is ready for school I let him on the computer for a half hour.  Dylan (the aforementioned sleep wrecker) comes in and cries because nick is on the computer and I said he cannot use it because he didn't listen this morning.  Then the baby is up singing and bouncing around.  He is so adorable.  I wake up the husband.  And then after the children go to school, I read the Julie/Julia blog for a little bit (I googled it around 3am).  Then I fall asleep around 10 am.  I am awakened by a cat on my stomach which makes me have to use the bathroom.  Yet it is eerilie silent in the house.  My husband is curled up on the bed next to me, the baby is napping,  I can't figure out what is different as I make my way down the stairs to tinkle.  Then I figure it out.  The electricity is out.  So I wake up husband worried that some idiot at the electric company put our check thru too early as they promised to post date it for the first.  Nope turns out the neighbor had two tree's cut down and they turned off the electric to four houses on the block just in case and it should be back on in three hours.  Fine I went back to sleep.  Today was an early release day.  Meaning Nick was in my room talking about something and wanting something to drink as soon as he left it seemed.  Ugg.  Anyhow.  I drift off again, hubby is up by now.  20 minutes later husband and all kids are in my room again and I am awake now. I am told I have mail....

The return of Wally!  Remember how I said that hubby had found a lump in the ladies..and I went to the doctor and they did all sorts of tests.  Then I got a letter either last Saturday or the Saturday before stating that everything was normal....well I get a letter today and an urgent phone call stating that "Your recent digital mammogram showed a finding that requires additional imaging studies for a complete evaluation"  The phone call was taken by my husband and was urgently scheduling me for follow-up testing on MONDAY.   Okay whatever happened to the letter that said "the result of your digital mammogram on 2/09/10 was normal:"... what are these things like pregnancy tests or those invisible pens the longer you let it sit the darker and more visable it becomes?  Was somebody drawing on it?   WTF?  I am convinced that this is a conspiracy.  There is nothing wrong.  They just haven't seen enough of the ladies.  I don't like to pay for having my boobs squished, felt up by various people; wet, thick, slimy stuff rubbed all over them....Shouldn't they be paying me for that?
Good news is I got a 80.00 check today and went to cash it vs. depositing it because well we are slightly withdrawn in our CA and we needed the cash for some food for the weekend.  I get money on the first and it will more than cover what we are behind.  No biggy.  So we went to Wally world and got my check cashed, got some groceries, cat food and diapers.  Came home and got a phone call from the electric company saying we needed to call them by 9 pm tonight.   So we call.  Turns out that there was no memo on the account that we paid the bill but upon further investigation (a different page in our account) it showed the post dated check there.  So we were all good.  Again another URGENT false alarm.
I then get a call from my Sister in law.  I told her the fabulous news of the mail I received.  Then she decides to tell me that she has great news to tell me.  That she is retiring her old head bitch (best friend) and I am now the glorious holder of that title!  Yeah...I have worked hard for that title, now if she only would have seen it years ago that I was qualified for that position it would have saved us both some heartache.  But hey the point is I am finally IN!  Along with this dubious title, I get unwavering loyalty, no longer will she sit silently while others bad talk me etc.  I am happy.  Really I am.  I was wondering if she'd ever notice my potential. I of coarse demanded a certificate of award.  And then asked if this is like the booby gate.  Next week will I get a letter saying she is sorry but I am not as qualified as previously thought and my title given to someone else?!  We both got a laugh out of that.  Yes we are strange, and dysfunctional in normal world.  But if you knew of our backgrounds it is the most functional thing yet!  He He.  Anyhow I love her, she loves me now.  It is great to hear.  I am sad we had to move so far away.  Like I said if she would have realized this over a year and half ago, maybe I'd still get to be in Iowa somewhere.  Sigh.  Oh well.  Stinky in-laws...(Not her), the others.  But of coarse blood is thicker than non blood.  So I can't fault her for wanting to go along with the others.  I of coarse know nothing of the bond of sisters because I never had any.  I have two older brothers.  So basically I am an only child when it comes to siblings.  He He.
I am still addicted to my Facebook.  I am still slowly regaining memories of my youth and I am still confused about my life.  But who isn't.  So I am wondering what to do...should I blog about something important.  A theme perhaps.  I was thinking about cooking the recipes out of RR 30 minute meals and telling you how much time and money it actually cost and if they are any good.,  I don't know.  I feel like I have no purpose but to be a pin cushion and lab rat to doctors and a complaint department for husband, children and family members.
Okay is it normal for a laptop to heat up so hot?
That is it for the night.  I mean morning.  Time to try to get some sleep before I catch children sneaking in to use the computer or steal my Mountain Dew.  In a few hours I will be waking up to the shrill blood curdling screaming and fighting of my children and husband.  Can you see how enthused I am!  Tomorrow  Tomorrow I'll Love ya Tomorrow....yeah blow it out your ear Annie.  It is a Hard Knocks life and no amount of singing makes it go away.  He He...well then again people do seem to scatter when I don my MP3 and sing some Avril or JLO...or maybe some This is the story of a girl...who cried a river and drowned the whole world!!!!!

Don't get all the hate...I believe it is a reflection on a persons beliefs.

Okay.  I started reading again.  Reading posts below news stories or whatever and don't get why people are so up in arms that the duggers had another kid.  Calling them publicity whores and what not.  It is just JEALOUSY.  Plain and simple.  Jealous of what you may ask?

Jealous of the fact that here are these people that live a different way of life than most.  And they have 19 children.  8 of which are teen agers and above and these are the most respectful, helpful, well rounded children with great work ethic that I have ever seen.  This mother has 19 kids and never YELLS...at all.  These children do their chores without backtalk, they enjoy doing things with their family, they are not into drugs, alcohol, promiscuous sex etc...or the many other issues that are "plauging" the kids in our society.  How many times have you heard...I just cannot get my kid to pick up his room, I cannot get a minute of peace since my child has all these issues. And parents these days (me included) say there is nothing I can do.  blah blah blah.  But here you watch evidence that not all kids are like that.  That there are children who do things with their family and enjoy it.  The hate and accusations is because we are mad that it shoves in our face our inadequacies and perhaps if we were a little more aware about what we do and how we act and the choices we make for our 1-3 kids that maybe they could be like that.  I mean I can't understand how the mother with 19 kids never yells shut up..how when her kids do act the way that she doesn't approve of she doesn't punish them, she kneels down to their level and almost whispers her expectations to them and whispers how she wants them to correct it.  If anyone is qualified to be parents it is them.

Before their show they could afford their kids.  They are not on any form of public assistance, they are not in debt, their kids are not suffering any and travel and do good for others.  They are not preaching about things that are in our opinions detrimental or wrong like polygamy, etc...  Why is it so hard to believe that they let their kids make their own decisions and their kids choose to do the "right:" things.  Those kids are not brainwashed.  They seem to be happy.  What...OMG  Their 21 year old son works, and got married and saved his first kiss for his wedding day...how horrible and wrong... and How many 21 year olds are out there still living in their parents basement or house and not contributing anything and sitting around all day smoking pot, playing video games and have no ambition in life.  Wanna guess these are the same people that judge the duggars...  How horrible the kids helped build the house .. God forbid children learn a skill these days and god forbid the parents teach them a usable skill.   The children socialize.  The parents go to things several times a year where the kids meet up with other kids.  So what if they are like minded.  The best way to stay on track and on the path you want to be on that won't sink you is to stay around positive people that have the same beliefs and morals that you do.
Okay I will stop now.  I am not religious, I yell at my kids and am definitely not a star parent, but the difference is I recognize it and I don't say it is society or anyone elses fault my kids are the way they are.  I don't fall into the comfort zone that yippee look at all the kids worse than mine or the majority of kids are the same way. . the judgement of not so stellar parents is a murmer but great parents get judged so much louder especially if they limit tv, video games etc...because we don't have the strength to do that because we believe we will be hurting our kids in some way and these people prove that our kids could be so much more.  And what amazes me is this mother remembers all her kids birthdates, and can list the personality traits of all her children.  I only have three and have issues with that.  BTW the baby being premature had nothing to do with her age.  Do people get onto twenty something year olds because they had gull stones and pre eclampsia?  I did are you going to attack me because I should not have gotten pregnant because there was a chance of pre eclampsia?    How are they hurting you?  They recycle.  They shop at second hand stores and so forth so they aren't taking away from you.  Maybe if we believed and left more in gods hands we would be better off than we are too.  But it is hard to do isn't it.  I know I can't at this time, but boy do I wish I could.

Funbags are not so fun anymore....

February 8th 2010,

Tonight while telling me how lovely my fun bags were David stops and says what’s this? Feel it. Of coarse I can’t feel anything much. My boobs always feel lumpy and weird to me that is why I don’t bond with them much. Sure enough I felt a lump….We’ll name it Wally after leave it to beaver (yeah lumpy was to obvious) so I was feeling for Wally. I sat up, laid down, squished it all around…and there in the same place was Wally. Saying ha ha. I felt my other boob up and didn’t feel anything in it like Wally, even though I tried to say I did. Any who I am sure Wally is nothing but an annoyance that will lead to many a painful test and procedure and turn out to be NOTHING….Just like the whole water breaking at 25 weeks, and the Post Partum Cardio Myopothy, Heart Failure and Pulmonary Edema…I should be dead by now but miraculously it healed itself. I tell ya I am getting tired of these health crisis’s that lead to medications, procedures, appointments, IV’s and blood tests and for nothing….Yes I am glad everything seems to heal itself in my body. But it gets annoying. Just when I think I know what I have to deal with and am all gun ho about it…I am fine. Ugg. So hubby talked me into going to the doctor so she can check out Wally. And then we’ll see what happens from there

Do I get to have my boobies put in the booby press? I hear that hurts. And don’t give me it is discomfort crap. I don’t trust the word discomfort coming from doctors. Anyhow I am going thru a lot more in my head right now and don’t need lumps like Wally taking away from my current topics of psychosis! One at a time please!

Feb 9 2010

Funbags not so fun….

Okay so I went to the doctor today. Yeah that was fast. At 1:15 I traipsed into my doctors office and I don’t think my doctor felt anything. But sent a referral for a mammogram anyway just to be sure. So I am thinking it will be days before the dreaded Mammogram. Nope sir. The nurse came in and said they can “squeeze” me in now. Oh the irony. So I get the Mammogram done and I am waiting to see if the images are good enough and the lady feels Wally and decides that I should just go ahead and get a breast ultrasound done. Just in case. LOL. So now we wait. I doubt anything will come of this than two hours wasted getting my boobs felt up by three different people (as close to swinging as I'll ever get) and squished flat….The perfect way to spend an afternoon…. PS the boob pancake machine didn’t hurt at all. The lady was surprised I allowed her to squish all the way and didn’t even wince. Oh and the positions are lovely. Does this count as exercise?

Feb 11th.

Still no word from the lovely doctors....No news is good news? Ya know I am getting tired of all this big stuff and doctors being concerned and then it turning into nothing....I want to yell at my body and doctors remember about the boy who called wolf? Stop calling wolf until there is one or I won't listen....Okay I don't anyway...but I will not let my husband make me go to the doctor next time....lol Oh and my boob is sore now...like most things that don't hurt during it hurts later... I'll let ya know when I hear anything.